Vacation Day 1

I had a productive day, it is the first day in three weeks that I don't have to drag myself to work, because guess what, I am on VACA! It feels good. I don't feel so good right now, I shouldn't feel bored, I have plenty to get done, maybe it is restlessness mixed in with a bit of loneliness, yes that sounds about right, it may be because this is the first time in weeks that I am home at this hour and had an early morning, not something I am used to. I am also not used to having to communicate with my guy via e-mail... which in this day and age feels like an eternity. Torture. Being away from him is torturous. It scares me. I didn't see myself here. Now here I am. Terrified, but happy.

So early morning, I stopped by Walgreen's for breakfast (rice crispy, so bad) and cash back (you never know who takes debit these days) and on my way to the register, the 3.99$ movie bin caught my eye, as it always does, but I had no time to spare, I only stopped because I was MAGNETIZED to a film titled "American Splendor" starring Paul Giamatti. SOLD! Already a great day right? Next dropped thirty bucks on gas, half a tank, okay scary, but I'll take it. Drive for 53 minutes, arrive at destination, scared to drive up hill in fear of not being able to turn around, make a couple U-turns, got 20 minutes! Okay NOW arrive at destination, amazement, I walk down feeling young, brown, and out of place. Bullshit in the bookstore before the tour begins. Taliesin West is a dream. I can really appreciate the Sonoran Desert in this light, Arizona is beautiful, too bad I live in the shitty suburbs of Avondale where the architecture makes you feel like a soulless robot. Frank Lloyd Wright is a dream. We would get along just fine he and I. I love museums.

Later I drove thirty miles to ASU West for an afternoon with my guy, the little time we spend I cherish so much, I wasn't sad when I said goodbye this time. I am confident we will meet again tomorrow.